wOOoOoOt

u wanna know sa'eng weird...blah "my feelings is weird" lolz.. iunnoe i can't explain it...it juzz hit me up like a bullet...juzz like dat...bulls eye na'm sayin' when i gaze up on her mang..i felt my heartbeat...my heartbeats faster n' faster...mangg...feels like im gonn' live agen...tho she's far fro' me...i cud feel her next to me...yeh i'm weird...earlier i was all down...as if ders nomoe tomorrow..but i look at d' brightside of my life...consequences, struggles, fears and problems u gosta face dem all..sall tough...but u'll learn sa'eng fro' it..no doubt...daz d' knowledge dat u get fro nowurr...out o' d blue u juzz know it...rite rite?

hayyy...

mang...i swear she's sa'eng...ders sa'eng special bout dis gurl...sigh* u take my breath away...blah blah...im out...

p'z!

Dammet...

i juzz h8 diz day tangna akala co pa naman itz gonn' be all gewd tpos...blah...surprise surprise...sigh* dat shii made me feel like blah...maang i wish i cud ahhhh...i can't express my emotions right now...sigh* maaang...i swear...tangna akala co everythings gonn' be fine now tos biglang whoa....wtf is dat?wtf wtf wtf....geeeze...worst day?maybe...sigh* i can't handle dis small shii nomoe...blah...maybe hmmmmn...am i givin' up agen?deng...iunnoe..WHY IS EVERYBODY TRIPPIN'....too much hustles mangg...but unteng tiis lang...im goin na sa L.A...sa dec. 26...maybe?stayin der foh 2 weeks...sigh* finally...my vacaxion...ayaw ng parents cong mag stay aco dhon foh gewd...blah...hehehe...ohwell life goes on....oh wait...wala na nga pala cong "BUHAY"...so i'm throwin' away kung ano mang natitira pa sakin....sigh* and i'm sleepy....na2log foh 1 hr..hayyy...watta life...sigh* ewan wala na cong masabe...nababad3p lang aco kapag na iisip ko tong problema co sa buhay...asar nakakaasar tlaga...tang ina.....sigh*

`Everything Is You Pt.2

sayo ko lang talaga toh nararamdaman...

ung masaktan ng sobra...
ung mawalan ng pride...
ung tipo bang wala na kong pakelam sa paligid ko basta para sayo...

kaya lang biglang nag-bago un...

biglang isang araw binaliwala kita...
hinayaan ko na mag-tiis ka sa lahat...
hinayaan kong masaktan ka sa kalocohan ko...

inaadmit co lahat ng mali ko...

i mistreat chu...gang sa di mo nakaya lahat...
i took advantage of yer weakness...

ngaun nag-sisi ako...

yer askin' me to beg...

kung mag-bebeg nga ba co tatanggapin mo co ulet?
tatanggapin mo ba co ulet ng buong buo?

kung beggin' ang paraan para bumalek ka sakin...
di lang beg ang gagawin ko...khet anong i ask mo i'll do it...i juzz can't live without chu...yer like my oxygen...uhhmmm,,,di lang oxygen moe of like my life...without chu...it's incomplete...para cong jigsaw puzzle na nawalan ng piece...di na co buo...khet kelan di na co mabubuo...kc kulang na...

wala na ung gf co na napaka-selosa
wala na ung gf co na laging nag-babawal sakin
wala na ung gf co na ginagawa lahat para sakin
wala na ung gf co na tinatakas ako sa parents nia
wala na ung gf co na pinag-lalaban aco sa parents nia
wala na ung gf co na maloko...
wala na ung gf co na manyak...
wala na ung gf co na excited na excited mag-sama kame...
wala na ung gf co na inaasikaso ako...
wala na ung gf co na ready mag-layas makasama lang ako...

at marame pang ibang bagay ang nawala sakin...

pero higit sa lahat eto pinaka masakit...

wala na ung gf co na mahal ako ng sobra...na mahal ako higit pa sa ibang bagay at ibang tao...

in short...

wala ka na...

ang hirap tanggapin...

balik ka na mahal...:(

plis....alam kong kulang pa toh...kulang pa toh sa lahat ng pag-titiis mo sakin...kulang pa ang mga cnasabe co...pero gagawen co lahat para lang sayo...

`Everything Is You...

blah...it was ages ago...nun last na iyak co sau...and now i'm tryin' to hold back 'em tears but i juzz can't....tears starts flowin....parang di na hihinto at di na co mauubusan ng tears...

sabe co sau...

i'm gonn' letchu go....
give yer freedom...

pero ang hirap...

ang hirap tanggapin na eto na ung time na tapos na tayo...

i can't turn back time...

sana nga kaya co pero hindi tao lang ako...

tao lang akong nag-kakamali...

mahirap na i-forgive aco...i know dat...pero eto pa din ang sasabihen ko...

"SORRY"

SORRY sa lahat ng pains...
SORRY di ko napakita sayo kung gano ka talaga ka importante sakin...
SORRY kung naparamdam ko sayo ung pinaka masakit na feelings...
SORRY i turned my back on you,,,
SORRY binaliwala kita...

SORRY SORRY SORRY

kung may magagawa man ako para bumalik ka i will...pero i stand no chance neimore...di mo na ko tatanggapin ulit...dis is too much for you...so i guess i juz have to face d' fact na wala ka na tlaga saken...i know dis message wont work neimore...i guess i juzz wanna letchu know dat no matter wat...i'll love you...it'll never fade...kahet na im wif sum1 else na'engz gonn' bit my love 4u...

hayyy...

your my everything
your my life...
your d' best gurl i ever had...
your d' 1 i love...

i wish i cud take u back...
i wish your right hurr nxt 2 me...
i wish i cud kiss n cuddle u...
i wish u'll gimme anotha chance...
i wish i still OWN you...

ang dameng di ko nagawa di ko napakita...puros sa huli ang pag-sisi....kung nakakamatay tong nararamdaman co malapit na siguro kong mamatay...

Love You...

Holding Back The Tears...

sumtimes le'ing go is the hardest fing in yer life...

it's been awhile since i've seen you around...so tho im up on fingz now....im still down...at d' end o' d' day im finkin' of u...still after i tot d' love was gone...memories hold my thought..when d' love was strong...how we used to kiss and cuddle..ma...i was fit to love u...but now it's flip to wack...i end up missin u...wat cud have been if u choose to stay..see if u was hurr i'll hold u close today...i'll never let go...forever sinful..commit 2u wenever i set foh d' nxt hoe...it's been stressfull...and tho my hopes r gone im still hurr i'll keep on holdin on..

usually i aint da type 2b like dis...get sprung 1 on 1...i promise u everytings gonn' be olrite...but d' distance between us is madness and moe fights...moe nights when i long for u...thinkin if im really wrong foh u...

deym...

why do we have to loss touches..
Is dis d' end when we have to loss us?

now im clueless wat am i gonn' do witchu...lookin back everything used to be beautiful...and tho d' tears keeps flowin' on...i got my werd mah..ill keep holdin on...

cud it be my destiny to be lonely?
waitin' in vain 4u to console me?

even my homies react sayin' i got it bad...derz many oppurtunities dat i gosta grab...

same senario...same old shiii...dey don't understand d' way u came so quick..d' matter u left me depress me..i hid d' tears...but its obvious it's over now..without chu in my life is colder now...wishin' i cud hold chu now...and in my arms u'll rest...spend quality time and calm your stress...but on tha real ma yer not hurr nomoe..and even if i try...so all i can do is keep my dreams rollin on...remember i promise i keep holdin on...

P.S

Forever you'll gonn' be special to me...eventhough back then i never really got to show it 2u...i never got to show u yer true worth...